Baby Has A Name...

Patrick Jean Krajewski

It took awhile to pick a name that felt right and last night we decided that this one was it. We knew we wanted to use Jean as the middle name (or one of them) to honor my grandfather who was ore of a father to me then my own dad. But the first name keep being hard to figure out. we liked Patrick before the ultrasound, but my father in law didn't like the nick name Pat, so we kept over passing that name. But the more I thought about it the more it felt like the right name. Patrick was also the name that me grandma suggested for our first son, but we had already chosen Andrew. We knew from the moment we decided to keep our baby what we would name it either way, and when I got pregnant this time we were hoping for a little girl and already had her name, which honored my grandma by using her middle name as our daughter's middle name. That is part of the reason we didn't try to find a new boy name, but now we have it and it honors both of my grandparents who raised me and my sister when they didn't have to. I love them both, and am thrilled to be able to pass on what they have taught to our children.
Big Brother : Andrew Phillip Krajewski 2/25/2009
Little Brother : Patrick Jean Krajewski EDD 12/1/2011

Baby # 2 is a....

BOY And I couldn't be happier. I had a feeling that baby might be a boy, but hoped that I was wrong. We liked the idea of a little girl, but are thrilled about having boys. Who knows what the future will hold, there may be more children, and there may just be our two sweet boys. I am okay with that. Let me tell you it makes getting ready for baby a heck of a lot easier. Things we need still are:

• Glass bottles
• Cloth Diapers
• Breast pump
• A few more baby gowns (I loved these with Andrew!!!)
• Bassinet sheets (I have 3, but want to make more)
• Some new clothing for him
• Blankets (Andrew is not into sharing his)

We have all the big things, crib, bassinet, car seats, swing, high chair, bouncy chair, jumper, exersauser, toddler bed, clothing, crib sheets. 

Things I still want to make for baby,

• Car seat cover
• diaper covers
• Blanket
• Booties
• Hats
• Baby Mittens

Life has been... well life I guess.

Sorry I haven't posted in such a long time, but there were alot of life issues going on in my world. Aside from being pregnant and sleepy and sick and run down. Something earth shattering happened to my family in June. My grandmother was feeling sick still and went to the ER and while she was there they said her kidneys were not functioning like they should be. (This is due to the congestive heart failure) And the only thing they could do for her at the hospital was to make her comfortable. There was nothing they could do to cure her or make her better. So our family had 2 options leave her at the hospital and go see her everyday, and let them do what would make her comfortable. Or we could bring her home on hospice and take care of her and spend more time with her, she could have whatever she wanted not diet restrictions, or fluid restrictions. She could be in her own home with family and friends. So that's what we chose. To have her with us for as long as we could. (I don't do well with sharing my feelings on things- I blame my dad for this because I know he does the same thine, but I am trying to get better about opening up to people about how I feel and what I think. It's hard, but I know it will make things better for me to stand up and be counted. ) Anyways, I just can't go in to more details about the fallowing weeks, but on June 21, 2011 My grandmother passed away in the arms of my aunt and grandpa. The service was the fallowing Saturday and nothing in our lives will ever be the same again.

Everyting is wonderful!

Sorry it took so long to post this but Everything is good. Baby is safe and in the right place and has a heart beat. I hate my doctor, He is a big jerk, but I don't care. Because I have a safe and sweet baby still growing. He says the baby is a week smaller then I did and moved the due date out a week. So now December 7th 2011 Our little baby is set to come. But I am betting that then end of November or the first few days in December will be more like it. My water broke with Andrew on the due date I got not the week later that that doctor also said. So we shall see... When baby decides to come. I hope that baby waits until after thanksgiving to show up. I got to get my but in gear and get Christmas going. I am so not going to feel like doing that much in November or December. So I am hoping to have Everything done before that 1st of November. I am thinking about Halloween and hoping that Kevin and I can figure out by September and have it made before that last minute.  Not to mention I have tons of stuff to do around our home to get ready for the baby, and I want to use cloth diapers this time so I will have to get those also made. It feels like there is tons and tons of stuff to do before November. I know that I will get it all done. It will just take time.

Spotting,,,, And Praying for a miracle.

Oh God No. Not now. Please let this be nothing... I am having spotting and worried that we might be loosing this baby too. I really hope that I am wrong and am praying for a miracle. I was so happy when we found out about the baby and will be crushed if s/he is gone. Please hold on there baby... I so want to meet you in December. I already have you a wonderful gift, and a sweet big brother to take care of you. I now wish we had waited until 12 weeks to tell everyone, just because it will suck to have to explain to everyone that we lost the baby. I just want everything to work out and the baby to be healthy and happy in our arms in December. It took so long for us to get this baby and to think of loosing it just sucks. I don't want to wait another year if we do happen to get pregnant again. I just am sick. I am trying to not worry, but it is not easy... I just want to know. I want to know everything will be alright. Oh please, Oh Please, Oh Please, Oh Please....

Some days I wish...

Some days I wish I was a stay at home mom. There are days I feel like Andrew is set aside more then he should be because there is so much going on, and now we are getting a new baby and I worry how I will take care of my 2 children, and 7 daycare kids and help grandma, and keep my home in order and keep my head. I am sure once the baby is here I will have everything set up, but it is crazy to think of all these people depending on me everyday. Man I don't understand why kids want to grow up so fast... I wish I could be a kid again some days.

Our home is undergoing a major change, I am rearranging the front room and dinning room now. Next will be the master bedroom (have to make room for the bassinet, and changing table) Andrew's room needs a bit of work too, And I haven't even tried to get to the bathroom this weekend. I have tons of sewing and Knitting and crocheting, I want to do for the new baby, and myself, and Andrew too. Not to mention that I have all my Christmas stuff to get done before November. I know that this is tottaly normal and I am worrying over nothing really... There is still time. There is still time. There is still time. (Just keep repeting this to myself) I am not behind yet!

Midwife E-mailed me today :(

SO I got an Email back form the midwife today and lets face it I am a bit saddened by the news she has shared with me. First off I was really hoping to have the baby at home, but its just not going to be able to happen. $3900 is just not in our budget. I really wish that we had the money but I am going to have to stick with health insurance paying the way and have this baby at the hospital too. This time however I will be reading up on different things and better ways when it comes to delivery and postpartum. I think I would reather have the extra money to buy the new baby a few items.

Items I am thinking about buying for the baby;
Car seat      $150
Bassinet      $100
Breast Pump   $75-200
Pack in Play   $100-150

There will be other things that I think of as we get closer and after July when we can find out the sex of the baby.

On hold... with Kaiser waiting to find a OB/GYN

Wait wait wait wait So boring. I am sitting here listening to crapy music while I wait to transfer to the person who is gonna help me find an OB/GYN for this baby. I wanted to do a midwife, but not gonna happen. It will cost too much and since we are paying for the insurance we'll have to use it. But I guess its not all bad, I know what I am doing this time around and am not going to get pushed around. I can and know how to have a baby and am so much more relaxed even in the first few weeks, Not freaking out about all things I don't know how to do or if I should be doing. Taking my vitamins, drinking my water ( skipping the coffee) eating healthy (enjoying every moment, Even the sick ones.)

Talking to the lady right now. Monday we will set up the appointment. Sometime after 4/20/2011... between 8-10 weeks.

So Thats how it works?!

Hope was just born on the 14th of March, and 14 days later I find out that I am finally pregnant! I couldn't be happier! Our Sweet Little bundle will be due on the 1 day of December 2011. Kevin and I had to take some time to adjust to the info, but now things are seeming to be great. We have by now let most of the family know, and friends. We still have tons of time and are super excited to find out if it will be K or J.

I had been planning on trying to get most of my Christmas stuff done before December 1st, but now everything has to be done. I'd love to bump my deadline up to the 1st of November. But we will see what I can get done, and how fast and easy things go. So this Blog is changing pace from trying to get pregnant to things that need to be done before our due date.

I finally got it!!!!

So I have been on the wait list for taking charge of your fertility for months now. (there was a long line...I was 17 down when I started) and now I have my turn. I get to see if it's something I want to buy and if it will help any. I know nothing is likely to happen with all this stress in my life right now, and things keep piling up, But that's life. You can't pick and choose what is thrown at you. I am really trying to go with the flow and not get too stressed out. Sure my home is a mess, I am running like a chicken with my head cut off some days, but you do crazy things for love. I love my family, so the crazy running is worth while. Yes it makes me tired and something I wonder if I'm cracking line a big nut, BUT I wouldn't change it for the world.

Andrew is growing faster everyday. Soon it will be his 2nd birthday, he'll be potty trained, sleeping in a big boy bed. It is kinda sad how fast it has gone by.

I wonder sometimes if we will have another one. We have been trying for almost a year, since we lost peanut, and nothing... everywhere I have read says it can take up to a year to conceive a child, but I know it can take longer...It is just funny how fast Andrew was conceived, and we didn't even try. I am very happy and blessed with my Andrew, I just feel like he would love to have a companion. Let's face it I am not a good hot wheels' player. I don't think like a child, and I know he loves being around other kids. We'll see if this book can tell me something that I am missing.  

Waiting for a baby is like chocolate....

Waiting for a baby is like chocolate....

This month this is true. I was a bit sad when aunt flow showed her face a few days ago, but I was also happy that I was not. I am doing good on dropping some unwanted pounds and if I were to be pregnant I would have to stop working hard at loosing weight until after the baby came. I am very happy with they way my weight loss is going at this moment, its slow, (BUT everyone says the slower you take it off the batter chance it will stay off). I have been sitting on an edge and wondering if I should wait or keep trying. I am just unsure on where to go from here...I want to have another child and hope that we will be blessed with one someday sooner rather then later.  I guess I will just wait and keep working out and eating right and of I do end up pregnant then great, and I can keep working after.

365 days ago I lost my sweet little pea...

This day last year I lost a baby I never got the chance to meet. It was vary sad and made me want to start trying for a second child. Since I had Andrew it didn't end my world, because he still needed his mommy. I thur myself in to planning his first birthday and Kevin and i planned on starting in 2011. (January) Then in April Kevin said lets start in the fall of 2010. Long story short we started in July because I thought that I might be again, but no. In November we had to stop trying again due to several issues that would make having another baby hard at that time. So we pushed it back to fall 2011. This past week has been crazy because we had Treyce and Hailey. Theresa suggested we think about taking the kids and I kinda want too because I worry about their well being, but Kevin doesn't. It would just make everything just crazy!!!! And right now we don't even know if they will let us take them. Time will only tell.