Feeling bad about having another one...

So today and the past few days Andrew has been very clingy to me. I worry about having another baby since he still wants to be the baby, I know that it will be a long time before he will have to share his mommy at home and he loves having the girls around. I know I'm being silly and everything will be fine... I think the waiting is getting to me. I'd love to try now but I know Kevin needs till the fall AT LEAST!! the only thing I have been keeping under my hat is If we start in September and do get pregnant on the first try the baby will be here in backflow season and I know how hard that time is for us with Kevin working so many extra hours. I also feel like there is so much that needs to be done before we are ready and when I talk to Kevin about it I feel like he doesn't want to think about it until I come to him and Say " Here we go Again..." He really isn't helping with our check off list. Its like if you want to have a baby prove it and complete this crazy list we have only then can you prove to me that your ready. Again being crazy... here.