December is not the month....

So I thought that December is not the month again. I know that we are back and forth about trying, but since we are not using birth control, we know that we could end up pregnant even if its not the time that we want. But that B!tch looks like she is showing up after all, and no wonder with all the stress of the holidays and grandma being in the hospital. I am a bit sad because I was hoping that this might be the time and it would be a little Christmas gift, but no dice. The good thing is it will give me time to work hard at weight loss (since loosing weight is not good during pregnancy, and also maybe loosing will help us conceive)

Kevin said that for every 10lbs I loose he's give me a $25 gift card to Victoria's Secret or Fredrick's of Hollywood. (That also might help with the baby making ;) !! ) So I started the deal at 185lbs, now 2 days after Christmas I'm 181lbs first gift card is at 175lbs. At 145 I get $50, and 115 I get $150. It is great motivation since I have always wanted to be able to buy sexy clothing. I am determined to get to 115-125. I started sewing and it is great for keeping my mind off new baby woes even thought I keep finding patterns for the baby to be. I have a few for Andrew and myself that I am working on and hopefully with loosing weight and keeping busy in a zen like sewing mind set, soon I will be posting to say what I need to be doing for that little bundle.

My baby is no longer a baby but a little boy.

So last night we went up to see grandma in the hospital. Andrew is so intent on being a big boy and doing things by himself. (Wonder where he gets that :) ??) He loves going to visit his Mamaw and Papa, and Papa loves it because they go on a walk about while we are up there. Papa takes Andrew down by the nurses station and then walk back, and all the nurses comment on how sweet Papa's grandson is. Normally when we leave we let Andrew walk to the elevator and then pick him up and carry him to the car. BUT last night he held my all the way to the car in the parking garage. I loved it!!! So far he will only walk with you a bit then pulls to go his own way, but he fallowed along and didn't fight he was so happy walking and being a big boy. When we got home he ate his dinner and then we started to get ready for bed. He says "lets brush teeth" and ran in to the bathroom. So we brushed our teeth, I can't believe how much he is growing and learning everyday. It is amazing.

I hate all this back in forth stuff...

I hate all this back in forth stuff... Kevin says he is just waiting to hear about the new job and once he knows his wages we can start trying again. There are so many ups and downs when trying to have a baby. I had none of the last time since Andrew was a surprise, but what can you do? Nothing just go with the flow. The boss needs 3 more people to sign off and then they will make Kevin and offer. I hope it is before Christmas break because I'm sick of waiting. I just want to know so we can move on this stop and start is crazy.

I am so confused

Kevin was talking about having a baby. He hasn't done that in forever. The lady's at xerox keep asking him when we are going to have another baby, and love the name we have picked out for a boy and a girl. He kept talking to Toby about it tonight. Toby was shocked that we were trying for a second baby. Anna and I have talked about it for months now and I was sure that she would have told Toby by now. Toby actually thought I might already be pregnant since Kevin and I were talking. ( After I have had 4 drinks!!! Come on, NO way in Hell I'd be drinking if I was knocked up) Andrew hung out with Grandma and Papa tonight and had a great time. I just couldn't get over how much Kevin talked about a baby tonight. He normally keeps a zipped lip when I bring up the baby subject. Maybe we'll be trying before the fall after all.   

Back to the drawing board... :(

So Kevin dropped a big problem in my lap. He wants to wait another year and start trying next fall. It went down like a led balloon! I really want to have another baby now and was praying that this might be the month and now we are not even trying anymore. Needless to say took HPT this morning and BIG FAT NO. Yes a year will let us pay off all (I mean all!) of our debt, and get a few more things ready. Andrew will be potty trained, I will have lost more weight, things will be paid down and off. So as much as I hate it, the clock has been reset and there are 11 months before we start trying again.


Today's weight is 185; BMI 36.1
Things in the plan today:Grandma is in the hospital so maybe she will get to come home today. Our Craft for daycare is Trick or Treat clocks, I need to finish Mariah's Queen of hearts costume and I need to finish my underskirt, my dress, my wig, my bloomers, figure out how to do the makeup, I did go buy Andy a little lion costume and Kevin isn't dressing up because of the band not dressing up (BOO!!!) So all the work I did on my Mrs. Lovette costume is a waste. I'm now going as Sally from nightmare before Christmas. And the store was sold out of the costume when I went to buy if so now I'm Making it. (Since I started on some of the other parts already. There is band tonight so Andy and I will be staying at Grandma's till Kevin is finished.

Upcoming stuff::
We'll have Treyce and Hailey this weekend(sister in laws kids, DHS took them away and now they live with my mother-in-law)
Next week is super busy
Tuesday and Thursday is band
Wednesday is Grandma's birthday
Friday We'll have the kids
Saturday is Spooky's Party
Sunday Halloween ( this year is trick or treating)

Next month is November and starts off the holiday rush.(Maybe waiting till next year after the holidays will be better after all.)

No dice....

This month is a no as well. Who'd of thought it was so hard to have a baby. maybe that's a draw back to having a surprise the first time around is when you are planning it can take a while. So they say it can take up to 12 months. we've been trying for 2-3 already so that means if could be 10 months still. trying to not get down over it and were working with Andrew getting him already for the big changes that we'll be facing someday. ( soon I Hope!) Its just funny cuz everyone around me is pregnant again... Shay just had a baby boy, my brothers girl is having their first (her 3rd) one of my mommy's is having another baby, a lady we went to church with is expecting her first, and our son's godfather and his wife will soon be expecting ( I Hope too!) This is what happened last time.... Heather ( Italy's mom) was expecting her second, Anna from work (at Nike, next cubical) got pregnant, my sister in law was pregnant again (she lost that one) and then I got pregnant. So maybe with all this baby dust flying around we can manage it again. Who knows?

I know that despite what Kevin says he'd hope for a bit more time and that it will take longer. I know how hard he works to provide for us and is worried about having another baby, but I know he wants one and would like Andrew to have a little friend at home all the time. And this time around it will be better because we have all the baby stuff we need, (maybe a few girl clothing) and I'm hope to be able to breast feed this baby and we are using cloth diapers, And Andrew will be out of diapers soon. There is never a prefect time to have a child, you could always have more money, time, space, be better prepared. I guess right now it's all out of our hands. The only thing we can do is try and hope and pray and it will happen when it happens.

Still working on Potty School. Not only is Andrew Potty Training, but two of the girls at daycare are too. Emma and Savannah... Things are not going well. I'll be so happy when we get it all worked out.

Halloween...I know its only September

So Kevin and I are invited to a halloween party on the 30th of October, and his band will be playing. So I wanted to see if Grandma could watch Andrew that night since it will be loud and a very late night and well Kevin didn't like the idea that much. So anyways Andrew will have his first night away from mommy and daddy at the end of October (20 months old; I'm happy that we have a place and I know people who have left younger babies then him) Now that big issue is costumes??? No clue??? I have finally sterted Mariah's queen of hearts costume the bodice is almost dome. For Kevin and I I was thinking Jack and Sally (nightmare before christmas) then I thought if I am pregnate we could go as a witch and skeleton and I could put a baby Skeleton on my belly. (we are taking Jello shots and so I wonder if I will be able to enjoy them or not) I hope that we have big news to share. God knows I'm trying to make it happen. Still trying to figure out what to make Andrew for halloween. but there is still time.

So things didn't go as planned... Oh well.

This Summer has been Crazy! I had tons of plans for things that needed to get done before we started trying for a second baby and it has all flew out the window. So in July I was a week late and thought for sure that I was, only to find out that I was so wrong. needless to say I was a bit sad about it, (it also moved the best time to get pregnant over our vacation in August. So much for an anniversary trip now...) I told Kevin this and he said lets just start now. What difference is two months going to make when all is said and done? So fast froward to now and we've been trying 2 months and now in the two week wait... Hoping and praying that this might be the month. Andrew is not potty trained and I'm not sure he will be before were expecting or even the baby coming. But that is not a big deal. The house is not anywhere close to being ready for a new baby but I figure I'll have nine months to get everything all set up. Just found out that our friends are also trying to have a baby too, so its exciting to see which of us will be knocked up first.

Bye Bye Baby Krajewski

So our little bundle will not be coming after all. I am very happy that we didn't tell anyone else about the baby because it would totally suck having to tell them that we are not having a baby after all. I hope that everything with Sean and April's little baby goes well and they have a safe little bundle in March. This is the second one in a year, maybe that means that 2010 is just not our year for a baby. This time around it's not as sad as the first time I do think that having Andrew already is a great perspective because I already have one sweet baby and with a toddler you cant fall to pieces when something happens. Life must go on and there is always another month and with luck and the grace of God another baby.

Babies and Graduation don't mix

Babies and Graduation don't mix, three hours is far to long to sit on mommy's lap and watch commencement. Andrew did very well and Jared's graduation tonight even though he was tired and didn't like sitting on my lap... I had snacks, juice and let him play with my wallet, cell phone, and new toothbrush that I had in my purse. I wouldn't have taken him if Kevin hadn't had to work, but there was nothing else to do. I didn't feel well and should have just stayed home, but it's only once and since there have been so many who haven't graduated in our family I wanted to show support for Jared doing a great job. Well the meds i took are starting to work, so off to bed.

June's mission is...

SO I have decided that the mission for June is to get the house in order. It's not dirty just disorganized. There is a lot of wasted space that we could be using better. I can break it up in to parts each week starting Saturday. So here is the plan...

Saturday 6/12 Master Bath
Sunday 6/13 Master Bedroom
Monday 6/14 Guest Bath
Tuesday 6/15 Hall Closet
Wednesday 6/16 Laundry Closet
Thursday 6/17 Band Night (no work)
Friday 6/18 Kitchen/ Shopping

If all goes well I'll get this all done.

Feeling bad about having another one...

So today and the past few days Andrew has been very clingy to me. I worry about having another baby since he still wants to be the baby, I know that it will be a long time before he will have to share his mommy at home and he loves having the girls around. I know I'm being silly and everything will be fine... I think the waiting is getting to me. I'd love to try now but I know Kevin needs till the fall AT LEAST!! the only thing I have been keeping under my hat is If we start in September and do get pregnant on the first try the baby will be here in backflow season and I know how hard that time is for us with Kevin working so many extra hours. I also feel like there is so much that needs to be done before we are ready and when I talk to Kevin about it I feel like he doesn't want to think about it until I come to him and Say " Here we go Again..." He really isn't helping with our check off list. Its like if you want to have a baby prove it and complete this crazy list we have only then can you prove to me that your ready. Again being crazy... here.

One month till my 24th Birthday

I have one month left of being 23. I am happy to see it go so we can move on, but sad that it means my baby will be 2 years old be for I know it. I plan to start potty training on July 8th. we'll see how that task goes. Hopefully he will be okay with giving up diapers like he was with the bottle and the binky. I know this one will take a lot more work. Next time around I think we may try cloth diapers, but I never know we talked about it with Andrew and ended up needing the easy of disposable. I need to do some more checking and we may do a mix of both, only time will tell.

We Did it!!!

Andrew is off the bottle one whole week today. Easy as pie, he just sopped taking it last Monday I gave him his eairly morning bottle thinking I want this to be the the last bottle and I wont give him another until he asks for it, and he never did. He has 2 cousins who are still on bottles one is 2 and the other 3. I am so happy that he was okay... I think it was harder on us because it takes a bit more work from us at bedtime and nap time, but it is so worth it to not have a bottle baby anymore. I am feeling good about potty(our next task.)

No More Bottle.....I hope

Today we are taking the bottle away and see if we can kick that habit. I hope that he gets rid of it like he did his Binky, but we shall see.

THIS FALL!!!

Kevin and I sat down tonight and talked about us having another baby sometime,and he said he'd like to try this fall to have another baby. Our second anniversary is August 12, and in September we'll start. Andrew will be 2 years and a few months before the new baby comes. It is exciting to think that Andrew will have a playmate next summer. BUT it also means that there is alot of work to do before we embark on the next journey. I'll post a list later once I come up with everything that we need to do before the fall.