December is not the month....

So I thought that December is not the month again. I know that we are back and forth about trying, but since we are not using birth control, we know that we could end up pregnant even if its not the time that we want. But that B!tch looks like she is showing up after all, and no wonder with all the stress of the holidays and grandma being in the hospital. I am a bit sad because I was hoping that this might be the time and it would be a little Christmas gift, but no dice. The good thing is it will give me time to work hard at weight loss (since loosing weight is not good during pregnancy, and also maybe loosing will help us conceive)

Kevin said that for every 10lbs I loose he's give me a $25 gift card to Victoria's Secret or Fredrick's of Hollywood. (That also might help with the baby making ;) !! ) So I started the deal at 185lbs, now 2 days after Christmas I'm 181lbs first gift card is at 175lbs. At 145 I get $50, and 115 I get $150. It is great motivation since I have always wanted to be able to buy sexy clothing. I am determined to get to 115-125. I started sewing and it is great for keeping my mind off new baby woes even thought I keep finding patterns for the baby to be. I have a few for Andrew and myself that I am working on and hopefully with loosing weight and keeping busy in a zen like sewing mind set, soon I will be posting to say what I need to be doing for that little bundle.

My baby is no longer a baby but a little boy.

So last night we went up to see grandma in the hospital. Andrew is so intent on being a big boy and doing things by himself. (Wonder where he gets that :) ??) He loves going to visit his Mamaw and Papa, and Papa loves it because they go on a walk about while we are up there. Papa takes Andrew down by the nurses station and then walk back, and all the nurses comment on how sweet Papa's grandson is. Normally when we leave we let Andrew walk to the elevator and then pick him up and carry him to the car. BUT last night he held my all the way to the car in the parking garage. I loved it!!! So far he will only walk with you a bit then pulls to go his own way, but he fallowed along and didn't fight he was so happy walking and being a big boy. When we got home he ate his dinner and then we started to get ready for bed. He says "lets brush teeth" and ran in to the bathroom. So we brushed our teeth, I can't believe how much he is growing and learning everyday. It is amazing.

I hate all this back in forth stuff...

I hate all this back in forth stuff... Kevin says he is just waiting to hear about the new job and once he knows his wages we can start trying again. There are so many ups and downs when trying to have a baby. I had none of the last time since Andrew was a surprise, but what can you do? Nothing just go with the flow. The boss needs 3 more people to sign off and then they will make Kevin and offer. I hope it is before Christmas break because I'm sick of waiting. I just want to know so we can move on this stop and start is crazy.

I am so confused

Kevin was talking about having a baby. He hasn't done that in forever. The lady's at xerox keep asking him when we are going to have another baby, and love the name we have picked out for a boy and a girl. He kept talking to Toby about it tonight. Toby was shocked that we were trying for a second baby. Anna and I have talked about it for months now and I was sure that she would have told Toby by now. Toby actually thought I might already be pregnant since Kevin and I were talking. ( After I have had 4 drinks!!! Come on, NO way in Hell I'd be drinking if I was knocked up) Andrew hung out with Grandma and Papa tonight and had a great time. I just couldn't get over how much Kevin talked about a baby tonight. He normally keeps a zipped lip when I bring up the baby subject. Maybe we'll be trying before the fall after all.